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Desire is in men a hunger, in women only an appetite. Mignon McLaughlin, The Neurotic's Notebook, 1960
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| Betty and Juma Mnyama worked quietly and efficiently together once again. She held his medical bag and soothed those fearing injections. They took tea breaks with Mildred and Lisa when needed. The group ate an early meal together, with drinks indecorously poured in tin cups but none the less relaxing. Nights, the group was dead tired and slept in their tents owned by the government and appropriated by Shane for the AIDS workers. Betty had her cell phone turned on at the request of her husband. Shane called each night as she first got to an early bed. He was tender, loving and wanting her home.
Shane occupied his lonely bed the nights Betty was away. His sleep came uneasily without her by his side. When he slept, he dreamed of Catherine’s fur and the feel of its sleekness against his body when they had slept side by side before her death. He would awaken suddenly still seeing her dark eyes before him suspended in the deep shadows of the room. He would awaken startled by a perceived whispering in his ear, sounding like his late wife. He had been warned to limit his cigarette consumption due to his chronic ulcers. In the inky blackness of the African night, he would sit at his open bedroom window, smoking and listening for the comforting sounds of the Masai as they began the day.
With little sleep, he walked his weary way from the mansion to the State House. He entered his office, saying good morning as usual to his secretary and me. I detected a certain haggard aspect to the young lion president. I took him his morning papers and asked if everything was well with him. He told me of his sleeplessness since Betty had been gone. We laughed a bit at that sign of marital habituation. I left his office and puttered in my own. Just a short time after that, I heard the thud. I ran to the door joining our offices and found Shane Simba lying on the floor and out cold. I rang the bell that summoned the guards and State House personnel. I called the hot line to the Exotic Animal Clinic that tells them the president is in trouble. An ambulance was sent immediately. Caroline Cheetah came and knelt beside him in a very efficient manner – very cool under pressure. The ambulance arrived with two paramedics and an intern. They got him inside and drove off, sirens blaring. I rode with his driver and Sloane Simba in the official Rolls to the clinic. Word, as it will, had gotten out. Daniel Lyon, as vice president, manned the State House. The scene was progressive pandemonium. I shoved my way through the masses of media with help from Masai spears. I made the call to phone Betty’s cell phone. I stayed on the line for a bit. She finally answered engulfed in a scratchy connection due probably to a failing battery.
“Betty, you have to come home,” I shouted through the static. “Shane is sick again.”
It didn’t take long for her, even with the difficult connection to discern that the love of her entire life was in bad shape. She screamed through the phone that she would be there – pronto.
It seemed an eternity that Sloane and I lingered in a special waiting room. Caroline Cheetah joined us. She seemed to be close to Sloane. He kept patting her knee in a distracted manner. There were many outside the special room but Sloane held at bay those that weren’t essential to Shane’s existence. His children were brought. Caroline helped keep them at ease. In a time span that seemed eternal, we waited there. At last, Dr. Frank Tigeres came and allowed us into his suite where he lay in the bed very comfortably with an IV in his arm. One could easily see that blood was being put into Shane. He seemed slightly sedated. Caroline stood to the back of the room as his children crushed toward his bed. Sloane and I stood near and allowed his frightened offspring their time with him. The door opened to Lachlan holding his clip board. He acknowledged us but went immediately to Shane’s side. They chatted pleasantly with Lachlan reminding him that they needed to keep all of their appointments. Shane readily acknowledged his need for the psychiatrist. Frank Tigeres took me aside and into the hall.
“Maurice, this is a very critical thing,” he said with gravity in his voice. “He is not healing well. Those ulcers still fester. He needs to be completely at ease in his life even if it means giving up the presidency. For Shane, it’s a matter of life and death for him to remain peaceful and watch his diet and habits.”
I was slightly overwhelmed by the gravitas of the situation. “Frank, Betty will be here soon. Will you tell her these things?”
“Of course I will, Maurice, I’ll shout them to the roof.”
Betty had felt the plane would never get to the Mara soon enough. Finally, after what seemed like excessive amounts of time, the small aircraft landed in the Mara. A limousine was waiting on the tarmac and carried her to the clinic and her ill husband. I think I was dozing in a chair when she came in. I know Shane was sleeping. He was filled with morphine. She went to his bedside and took his paw in her hand.
“Darling, what did you do? How did you get so sick so soon?” she said, kissing his face all over.
“I guess I must have languished for you, Fifi. I missed you and didn’t sleep well while you were gone,” he murmured with a slight slur in his diction.
“How do you have the energy to work so hard and still find time to pamper me?” I asked.
“It’s a pleasure, Maurice. You have a row to how ahead of you. Shane is very ill and will not get better until he can resolve his inner conflicts.”
“Do you think he needs to resign?”
“No, that won’t really help. It’s not the government of Kenya that is his problem. It’s his personal demons that haunt him. Giving up the presidency won’t do a thing for him. I am glad Betty is in his life. She loves him enough to muddle through it with him but he is a very tough nut to crack, Maurice.” I stood up and went to the fireplace where a small fire had been laid by Lachlan and crackled in a comforting manner. Suddenly I shuddered at the memory of another schizzed out animal that had suffered heart trouble but refused to remedy his problems and his life and died as a result – my former lover, Lawrence Leoparde.“He reminds me of Lawrence, Lachlan. Lawrence killed himself by refusing to adhere to any restrictions. Do you think Shane is doomed to the same?”“No, I knew Lawrence rather well. I think Shane Simba is a type that is not hell bent on destruction, just misguided. Lawrence was a much darker soul. Shane is young and conflicted. He recently lost his wife and the mother of his children, probably married in haste, has a god awful libido and needs to mellow out. He probably carries a shit load of guilt to boot. And now he has Kenya on his shoulders.”“As bad as that sounds, it makes me feel better,” I giggled.“It should. Now eat your stew so we can tend our own romantic inclinations.”Shane stayed in the hospital for several days getting transfusions of blood, good doctoring and the services of Dr. Lachlan Lion, psychiatrist par excellence. He also had twenty four/seven attentions from his wife and children. He was allowed home with enforced bed rest for a week. Betty made sure he didn’t cheat on his orders. The fortunate thing was his proximity (only a few steps) from his office in the State House. Another asset was a top notch vice president in Daniel Lyon and big help in his half-brother, Sloane who carried an important ministry on his young shoulders. Between these factors, Shane got much better. His children flocked around him in the evening as did Betty. He was forced in to glasses of iced Perrier with lime slivers. He was allowed one cigarette with his evening water. Nevertheless, according to Frank Tigeres, the major factor in his recovery was peace of mind. Frank and Lachlan worked together on this issue. My Lachlan held the key to his psyche.“The way I see it, Shane, is that you scout out a female that you want, get all wound up about her and your stomach goes south. Am I close?”They were in his bedroom. It was dimly lit and Lachlan sat on a chair near the bed.“You really are,” he chuckled in a humorless way. “I guess it’s the guilt when I want a female. Guilt over what my wife will suffer.”“Would you be better off single?”“I don’t think so. I love my kids and a home life.”“You haven’t said you love your wife. Just your kids and the home which I am assuming your wife creates for you.”“I love Betty, Lachlan. I really do. I was miserable without her.”Lachlan sensed a bit of desperation coming on so he decided to close for the evening rather than add angst to Shane’s already troubled stomach. |